wild.

Welp, this is going to be interesting. I'm only here because I need a free publishing space. Nothing to see... pay no attention to the woman behind the URL. A few years ago, apparently I used to have a blog under this particular website. I just went back and read my posts and man... God is good. I was such a mess. I mocked Him. I dishonored my parents. I was generally critical and mistrustful of a lot of people. Thinking back on where I was mentally, spiritually, emotionally during that time in my life.. yikes. I'm RELIEVED to be set free from that darkness. Sin is ugly. But God is faithful. Let's begin, yeah?

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